The Evolution of a Love Letter

At the time I was creating Dear Anonymous, I was already happily married, but the memory of how much I hated the games, the personality switcheroos, and obvious attempts to 'train me', I wanted to communicate hope to those still slogging through the trenches in an attempt to find a meaningful relationship not built on B.S.

Like most of the creative ideas I have, I wind up going through a bunch of iterations of what the work could be in my head before committing to anything. 

When I did commit, it originally came out as the three visual artworks below. Illusion, The Turnaround and Shiny Object. Alongside the images was going to be the text, but I never could get the words right.

Eventually, I found some words for the three images, but they weren't the love letter that I was envisioning. Frankly, what I came up with was a disappointment for what I was hoping to achieve creatively. At least so far as the creative work having that 'message in a bottle' feel I wanted.

So I kept working at it. And working at it.

Finally, while composing the music on the piano for a new song, it felt like it might be a fit feel-wise for the idea of a love letter in the lyrics. Over the course of the next few weeks, I laid out the music far enough to start writing the lyrics.

The concept that the love letter was now an audio transmission (you know, because now it's a song), the lyrics, "I hope these words haven't come too late..." opened the floodgates.

Within a couple weeks, I had the lyrics and within a couple more, I had the rough cut of the music laid out with a vocal rough laid over it.

Check out the demo version of the song where I played all the instruments and performed all the vocals. So what's a demo, you ask?

It's a rough recording to lay down the idea of the song. In this case, I got it close to how I envision the final version to sound.

The lyrics are beneath the player.
 

Here are the lyrics to Dear Anonymous:

Dear Anonymous 

I hope these words haven’t come too late 
That you haven’t resolved to let come what may 
That the world still holds a little wonder or two 
And you have faith a good man will come through 
Because I’m on my way even now as you listen 
To my voice via distant transmission 
Intentions? Entrenched in 
The belief that true love exists in 
A world where unrest is allotted like alms 
Siren songs are accepted as psalms 
Where we nest in the flesh, holding like breath 
And bed with our stress until we breed death  
But I’ll make my way through the brambles and thorns 
March, though the sun beats the sweat from my pores 
Mirages appear and hint of your shores 
And the life I believe we have yet to explore 

Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise cameras and crowds  
Or a life that’s lived in the clouds 
But you’ll find my love forgiving and faithful 
Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise tiaras and gowns 
But you’ll be the queen to my crown 
And when things get hard, I will not forsake you 

I know I might seem a little naïve 
Or perhaps it’s a ploy, me expressing these things 
I admit sometimes it looks those ways 
Eyes can deceive when we’re walking by faith 
with the heat of seduction impeding our thoughts 
until we yield to temptation at the cost of our hearts 
Distorting the way we view ourselves 
Till we no longer care for our relationship’s health 
But times like these demand we look hard 
Past the words used to hurt and the deeds that left scars 
So we can wrest our best from spirit and flesh 
Till sketch begets steps begets summit we crest 
Though we may not know the day that we meet 
The expanse of the journey we have yet to complete 
One day I’ll finally know your name 
And you’ll recognize the man from whence this all came 
 
Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise cameras and crowds  
Or a life that’s lived in the clouds 
But you’ll find my love forgiving and faithful 
Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise tiaras and gowns 
But you’ll be the queen to my crown 
And when things get hard, I will not forsake you 
 
I won’t accept that love’s beyond reach 
Or that we somehow deserve to have our trust breached 
So I send this knowing somehow you’ll hear 
and hope you can feel my presence draw near 
Though in a way this message begins our ever-after 
And I’ve put in work to be worthy of the chapter 
Where we both dare and I get my chance 
To have this dance 
With you… 
 
Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise cameras and crowds  
Or a life that’s lived in the clouds 
But you’ll find my love forgiving and faithful 
Dear Anonymous to me now 
Can’t promise tiaras and gowns 
But you’ll be the queen to my crown 
And when things get hard, I will not forsake you 

 

This is from a live spoken word performance of the song lyrics edited to better flow.